Pursuing My True Self

Oh yeah! I've finished the game before classes begun this year. In fact, I just start to do my second walkthrough for this game as soon as the semester begins. Degree course is way more relaxing as compared to my previous years of education.

The digits on the TV screen stated that I've spent a total of 115 hours playing this addictive game. Talk about a personal record. I bet I spent more time than that, considering my dearest PS2 has a processor similar to... Intel Celeron?! Gosh, when I recalled my friend's advice of spending our 24 hours wisely, I do feel ashamed of myself. So I've decided that I'm gonna spend my time honing my drawing skills instead. At least that's something beneficial that I can do, I think.

Persona 4 Aftermath: Personal Feelings

First of all, I wanna tell everyone how meaningful this game is. Well, the theme behind every RPG video game is always about good versus evil. However, what if that evil exist within yourself. Do you choice to ignore its existance, or will you try to defy your own ego? Tolerance is not a solution.

Well, the suggested solution is to accept the evil facade of yourself as part of you and bent it to your own will. Sounds unrealistic? Well, since we live in the information age of the 21st century, we never really go for any soul-searching trips (from Honey & Clover) or just spend time defining our individuality. Have you ever come upon a situation where you decide which persona you're going to put on to appease someone? I bet everyone did for countless time.

And the mass media is corrupted and distorted: they control the information and only show what the public wants to know, i.e. the mass media broadcast more and more data on celebrities, global news and rumours, what the public choose to know. Hence, the public delude themself in lies and falsery so that they can live a 'peaceful life' (kinda like The Matrix trilogy, where people's mind are trapped in a system known as The Matrix). After all, ignorance is a bliss.

So decide now, whether you want to live your live in ignorance or spend your lifetime searching for the truth (similar to the Four Noble Truths of Buddhism). I've chose the second idealism, which of course I fully know that much of my effort will be in vain. So which one would you prefer, my fellow readers?

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Okay, I've a confession to make. The 4 paragraphs above are my ambiguous feelings on life after playing the game twice. In reality, a better review can be found on Gamespot. I just don't really understand how come I got so emotional during Chinese New Year. I guess the atmosphere wasn't right. Imagine this: I read Eragon in my Grandma's place when I was surrounded by relatives and subdued to boredom. I was suppose to be playing Blackjack there, not reading some fantasy novel. Angpow is no longer meaningful. I wonder why.