Do you guys know that there's only 10 days to the beginning of my public exams, which gonna last approximately 2 weeks. It's been very, very tough on me. I don't usually study... yet peer pressure is driving me up the wall. I can find no peace except in my dreamland. This is just too much for me to bear.
I've learnt the I need to achieve 99% TER to get full scholarship from Monash. Shocking! This adds so much more to the burden I'm having already. Furthermore, a student is required to get s minimum of 90% for each subject to continue enjoying the scholarship. That's just insane. Wonder can I live up to my own expectations?
Everyday, I'll put on my lovely headphones (belonged to my dearest brother) and get on with life. And next week I planned to skip all classes and study in insolation instead. Let's just hope that it would be good choice that I'm making. Wish me luck for my exams. Signing out now.
Thursday, 23 October 2008
Sunday, 5 October 2008
Daybreak's Bell
As I munch down 2 packet of instant noodles this Sunday morning, I can't help but to realize that I never ever live in the present, ie. pay attention to what was happening around me. Maybe I am self-centered ba. My friends were like a few tables away and I didn't realize that we were in the same shop, eating. Lolz.
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The sound of a school bell rang in my mind. Stimulating reminiscence.
T.T somehow I really miss my past life. Sleeping in class, playing video games, more sleeping and hanging out with my friends are all I've done in the past 5 years. Seriously. Yet, I regretted that I never treasured those moment. And now, as I force myself to study, only then I truly understand those blissful days and euphoric moments.
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Another case of verbal abuse. The last recorded incident was by my moral lecturer. This time it was a security guard on a motorbike. He scolded, "You think you're very smart huh, try to walk pass this gate when you couldn't pass through the 1st one". O.o I was rather shocked. But that being said, I was angry because he wouldn't even listen to my reasoning. I guess what people generally think of Malaysians is true: Malaysians are hard-headed, including me of course XD.
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Code Geass R2 has came to a finale. Epic plot, I would say. Probably it would become as good as Lord of the Ring (heck, these two are not even in the same catagory). Gundam Season 2 premiers today, 5pm in Japan. Awwww... but anyway, I guess I won't be trailing this series, not until the public exams are over. Here's a picture/spoiler that I found online.
My clock's alarm rang. I guess it's back to business. Adios.
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The sound of a school bell rang in my mind. Stimulating reminiscence.
T.T somehow I really miss my past life. Sleeping in class, playing video games, more sleeping and hanging out with my friends are all I've done in the past 5 years. Seriously. Yet, I regretted that I never treasured those moment. And now, as I force myself to study, only then I truly understand those blissful days and euphoric moments.
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Another case of verbal abuse. The last recorded incident was by my moral lecturer. This time it was a security guard on a motorbike. He scolded, "You think you're very smart huh, try to walk pass this gate when you couldn't pass through the 1st one". O.o I was rather shocked. But that being said, I was angry because he wouldn't even listen to my reasoning. I guess what people generally think of Malaysians is true: Malaysians are hard-headed, including me of course XD.
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Code Geass R2 has came to a finale. Epic plot, I would say. Probably it would become as good as Lord of the Ring (heck, these two are not even in the same catagory). Gundam Season 2 premiers today, 5pm in Japan. Awwww... but anyway, I guess I won't be trailing this series, not until the public exams are over. Here's a picture/spoiler that I found online.
My clock's alarm rang. I guess it's back to business. Adios.
Wednesday, 1 October 2008
Apologize
I know that I've been neglecting my family and my social responsibilities, but I'm sure it is a better option for a brighter future. Sacrificing a little for the moment is well worth it, at least I think so. So, what I wanna say is, I am sorry, mum and dad, for not spending time with you guys. I know I'm not piety, but I have to study too (in reality, I spend only 2 hours a day flipping the pages of my books). You all have to be proud with me. After all, no one actually seen me study in the past 11 years of mandatory education, right?
Another apology to a good friend of mine, Ivan, for not able to attend your b-day gathering this Saturday. Actually, I was hoping to have it earlier, but I guess I was being selfish and of all, inconsiderate. Just hope that you will understand my sincerity to celebrate your b-day with you. Do have a great time.
Rizal and my lovely neighbours, I am truly sorry for not visiting you all this Raya. Here, I would like to offer my wishes, Happy Raya, to you and every Malaysian who are celebrating too.
Friends in Kajang, I know that I have also been neglecting you all and not contact you all, but I know that you will understand and support me to be more successful in my academics. I ought to get a higher TER (Tertiary Entry Rank) to prove to you all that my hardwork pays off, am I right?
But in the end, the only thing I cannot forgive is myself. After all, I was the one who said I want to come back to college campus to study, yet I spend most of my time...
...sleeping...tired...need rest...
I need my rest. Long day ahead. As the Chinese proverb says, "rest to walk a longer journey". Goodnight.
Another apology to a good friend of mine, Ivan, for not able to attend your b-day gathering this Saturday. Actually, I was hoping to have it earlier, but I guess I was being selfish and of all, inconsiderate. Just hope that you will understand my sincerity to celebrate your b-day with you. Do have a great time.
Rizal and my lovely neighbours, I am truly sorry for not visiting you all this Raya. Here, I would like to offer my wishes, Happy Raya, to you and every Malaysian who are celebrating too.
Friends in Kajang, I know that I have also been neglecting you all and not contact you all, but I know that you will understand and support me to be more successful in my academics. I ought to get a higher TER (Tertiary Entry Rank) to prove to you all that my hardwork pays off, am I right?
But in the end, the only thing I cannot forgive is myself. After all, I was the one who said I want to come back to college campus to study, yet I spend most of my time...
...sleeping...tired...need rest...
I need my rest. Long day ahead. As the Chinese proverb says, "rest to walk a longer journey". Goodnight.
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