If I Were A Boy

After reading the manga Hourou Musuko yesterday night, I had a nightmare: I dreamt that I actually wore dresses for a few times in my childhood. I felt so confused when I woke up today.

Seriously, I started to question my sexual identity. Most of the people believed that a good book are thought-provoking and would make you ponder on your life principles. But for a graphical novel a.k.a. manga to actually shake the cornerstone of my existence- my sexuality, I cannot believe this is happening. In fact, now I can still feel the aftermath shockwave.

Damn it. Due to the same series, I became so moody and cannot concentrate in doing anything. I guess I will have to pull an all-nighter to complete my assignments later. I'm still experiencing mood swings. That's just so feminine. I admit that I am sentimental in nature, but I don't think I am girly. Do you?

Most probably I will not turn gay. I better not, or I'll just suicide on if I ever come up with that idea. I swear to whatever God that exist in the world.

But then again, Murphy's Law reminded me that I should be prepared for the worst. I don't think I am gonna post anything on blog, not until I clear my mind of this issue. After all, life is all about finding yourself, your true character and your position in society.