Decent Days and Night

I am writing this post to let out my frustration that built up in me since last year. I am having a mathematics test tomorrow, which I am suppose to be studying right now. Yet, I am distracted by the Thousand-Years demonwitch at home- my grandma.

My grandma have been staying with me to form an extended family since... I was in Form 2, I think. Well, old people tends to be naggy, I can totally understand that statement. I experienced in for almost 5 whole years already. Believe me, she was more than naggy. She was cranky and pesky. At first I can still tolerate her attitude, but things changed just before I started SAM last year.

She suddenly got mentally retarded. Yes, her intellectual degraded sharply. The "Hakka" she speaks can only be understand by a few, including me. And because I understand her words, I become more agitated and frustrated with her actions that can make me literally "run up the wall". If I were to ever let loose my anger at the spur of the moment, I swear that I would have strangle her. But in one way I was glad that I didn't.

Today, she was shouting. Her tone makes you want to give her a slap. She often use that wailing-like tone, it makes you want to leave home. And for the same reason I always spend my time at the park near my house. She often pesker you whenever she sees you. This situation made me to hide upstairs or just not go home so early, just to reduce any contact with her. I sympathize her for her childhood past and the hardship she have endured during her adulthood. But making my family, friends and relatives suffer physically and mentally, I've no longer consider her to be part of the family. If she can still think and reason out her actions, then I'm sure she would regret them... how she put us into such miserable lives...

I maybe able to forgive her wrongdoings now, but I am sure to remember them too for the rest of my life. The only hope I have for her is that for once she would regain her conscience and no longer torture and hurting everyone...