Do you guys know that there's only 10 days to the beginning of my public exams, which gonna last approximately 2 weeks. It's been very, very tough on me. I don't usually study... yet peer pressure is driving me up the wall. I can find no peace except in my dreamland. This is just too much for me to bear.
I've learnt the I need to achieve 99% TER to get full scholarship from Monash. Shocking! This adds so much more to the burden I'm having already. Furthermore, a student is required to get s minimum of 90% for each subject to continue enjoying the scholarship. That's just insane. Wonder can I live up to my own expectations?
Everyday, I'll put on my lovely headphones (belonged to my dearest brother) and get on with life. And next week I planned to skip all classes and study in insolation instead. Let's just hope that it would be good choice that I'm making. Wish me luck for my exams. Signing out now.
Thursday, 23 October 2008
Sunday, 5 October 2008
Daybreak's Bell
As I munch down 2 packet of instant noodles this Sunday morning, I can't help but to realize that I never ever live in the present, ie. pay attention to what was happening around me. Maybe I am self-centered ba. My friends were like a few tables away and I didn't realize that we were in the same shop, eating. Lolz.
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The sound of a school bell rang in my mind. Stimulating reminiscence.
T.T somehow I really miss my past life. Sleeping in class, playing video games, more sleeping and hanging out with my friends are all I've done in the past 5 years. Seriously. Yet, I regretted that I never treasured those moment. And now, as I force myself to study, only then I truly understand those blissful days and euphoric moments.
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Another case of verbal abuse. The last recorded incident was by my moral lecturer. This time it was a security guard on a motorbike. He scolded, "You think you're very smart huh, try to walk pass this gate when you couldn't pass through the 1st one". O.o I was rather shocked. But that being said, I was angry because he wouldn't even listen to my reasoning. I guess what people generally think of Malaysians is true: Malaysians are hard-headed, including me of course XD.
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Code Geass R2 has came to a finale. Epic plot, I would say. Probably it would become as good as Lord of the Ring (heck, these two are not even in the same catagory). Gundam Season 2 premiers today, 5pm in Japan. Awwww... but anyway, I guess I won't be trailing this series, not until the public exams are over. Here's a picture/spoiler that I found online.
My clock's alarm rang. I guess it's back to business. Adios.
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The sound of a school bell rang in my mind. Stimulating reminiscence.
T.T somehow I really miss my past life. Sleeping in class, playing video games, more sleeping and hanging out with my friends are all I've done in the past 5 years. Seriously. Yet, I regretted that I never treasured those moment. And now, as I force myself to study, only then I truly understand those blissful days and euphoric moments.
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Another case of verbal abuse. The last recorded incident was by my moral lecturer. This time it was a security guard on a motorbike. He scolded, "You think you're very smart huh, try to walk pass this gate when you couldn't pass through the 1st one". O.o I was rather shocked. But that being said, I was angry because he wouldn't even listen to my reasoning. I guess what people generally think of Malaysians is true: Malaysians are hard-headed, including me of course XD.
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Code Geass R2 has came to a finale. Epic plot, I would say. Probably it would become as good as Lord of the Ring (heck, these two are not even in the same catagory). Gundam Season 2 premiers today, 5pm in Japan. Awwww... but anyway, I guess I won't be trailing this series, not until the public exams are over. Here's a picture/spoiler that I found online.
My clock's alarm rang. I guess it's back to business. Adios.
Wednesday, 1 October 2008
Apologize
I know that I've been neglecting my family and my social responsibilities, but I'm sure it is a better option for a brighter future. Sacrificing a little for the moment is well worth it, at least I think so. So, what I wanna say is, I am sorry, mum and dad, for not spending time with you guys. I know I'm not piety, but I have to study too (in reality, I spend only 2 hours a day flipping the pages of my books). You all have to be proud with me. After all, no one actually seen me study in the past 11 years of mandatory education, right?
Another apology to a good friend of mine, Ivan, for not able to attend your b-day gathering this Saturday. Actually, I was hoping to have it earlier, but I guess I was being selfish and of all, inconsiderate. Just hope that you will understand my sincerity to celebrate your b-day with you. Do have a great time.
Rizal and my lovely neighbours, I am truly sorry for not visiting you all this Raya. Here, I would like to offer my wishes, Happy Raya, to you and every Malaysian who are celebrating too.
Friends in Kajang, I know that I have also been neglecting you all and not contact you all, but I know that you will understand and support me to be more successful in my academics. I ought to get a higher TER (Tertiary Entry Rank) to prove to you all that my hardwork pays off, am I right?
But in the end, the only thing I cannot forgive is myself. After all, I was the one who said I want to come back to college campus to study, yet I spend most of my time...
...sleeping...tired...need rest...
I need my rest. Long day ahead. As the Chinese proverb says, "rest to walk a longer journey". Goodnight.
Another apology to a good friend of mine, Ivan, for not able to attend your b-day gathering this Saturday. Actually, I was hoping to have it earlier, but I guess I was being selfish and of all, inconsiderate. Just hope that you will understand my sincerity to celebrate your b-day with you. Do have a great time.
Rizal and my lovely neighbours, I am truly sorry for not visiting you all this Raya. Here, I would like to offer my wishes, Happy Raya, to you and every Malaysian who are celebrating too.
Friends in Kajang, I know that I have also been neglecting you all and not contact you all, but I know that you will understand and support me to be more successful in my academics. I ought to get a higher TER (Tertiary Entry Rank) to prove to you all that my hardwork pays off, am I right?
But in the end, the only thing I cannot forgive is myself. After all, I was the one who said I want to come back to college campus to study, yet I spend most of my time...
...sleeping...tired...need rest...
I need my rest. Long day ahead. As the Chinese proverb says, "rest to walk a longer journey". Goodnight.
Sunday, 21 September 2008
Happy Sensation
I feels great to be happy, though it may not be right to feel happy at such a moment. Hey, my exams is less than two months' time away.
Sunday.
Type/edit report is the first thing I do in the morning. How pitiful. About 3pm, I ended up borrowing a laptop from a friend and played DOTA with my classmates. It sure feels fun to play with them, at least they would not act snobbish just because they are good at it. After finish playing PC games, next up was badminton. When everything have ended, it was already 11pm and here I am updating my blog.
Such happiness is something that I do not deserve, considering the amount of effort I pour into my studies... I'm lazy. My motto used to be "study hard, play harder:. Now it is "study smart, play hard". Can you really understand the difference?
I do feel sad because I've lost contact with many of my friends. I sincerely that they would have a happy life too. Friends are compared to an intersection point. They come and gone. But they would alter the choices that you would make and hence influencing you for the rest of your life. You hope to be remembered, just know that they do not need to be reminded of the same thing. So call now. Do not let these bypasses be goners.
Sunday.
Type/edit report is the first thing I do in the morning. How pitiful. About 3pm, I ended up borrowing a laptop from a friend and played DOTA with my classmates. It sure feels fun to play with them, at least they would not act snobbish just because they are good at it. After finish playing PC games, next up was badminton. When everything have ended, it was already 11pm and here I am updating my blog.
Such happiness is something that I do not deserve, considering the amount of effort I pour into my studies... I'm lazy. My motto used to be "study hard, play harder:. Now it is "study smart, play hard". Can you really understand the difference?
I do feel sad because I've lost contact with many of my friends. I sincerely that they would have a happy life too. Friends are compared to an intersection point. They come and gone. But they would alter the choices that you would make and hence influencing you for the rest of your life. You hope to be remembered, just know that they do not need to be reminded of the same thing. So call now. Do not let these bypasses be goners.
Saturday, 20 September 2008
World of Our Own
Seriously, I am very very happy, happy that my lecturer, who I shunned all these while and insulted in the school's forum, actually took the initiative to turn over a new leaf, leaving SAM students in a better piece of mind.
As mentioned in my last two posts, I expressed my unhappiness for this particular lecturer. Usually I would just ignore the situation. But who the hell know what have gotten into me that drove me up the wall and.... post the issue on the school's forum. Encouragement from my classmates was definitely one of the main factors that invoked my action. I was surprised by both the positive and the negative feedback on the issue. However, at the end of the day/issue, I was in for more surprise when Mr. Lecturer stopped being sarcastic in class. Though things do not occur as I have expected (I predicted the worst), but yea, I am really happy and glad that it turned out this way. Mr. Lecturer no longer try to burden us, but instead, he had shown a little compassion and comprehension for SAM March intake student.
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Had a great game of basketball last night. Surprisingly, it was just plain fun. I used to dread this sport, 'coz you know how my size relative to other player actually put me into total disadvantage, not to mentioned being knocked flying for countless times. Yet, last Friday's game with my classmates was so enjoyable that I forgot about my hunger (no wonder happiness is the ultimate objective for every action of humans) until a point where there is an acid-base imbalance in my tummy and ouch, gastric striked. It was already 8.30pm then. And I usually have my dinner by 7pm. If my tummy didn't stop me, I may have continue playing basketball with my classmates until 10pm?
More than 6 months since I quited my part time job.
Less than 2 months before SAM public exams
52 hours countdown to my Physics test.
At least 7 uncompleted assignments, partialy done, now lay waste in my computer.
1 objective of life:
Eat (waste resources), drink (again waste Earth's resources), sleep (waste time) and slack (do nothing = waste more time).
As mentioned in my last two posts, I expressed my unhappiness for this particular lecturer. Usually I would just ignore the situation. But who the hell know what have gotten into me that drove me up the wall and.... post the issue on the school's forum. Encouragement from my classmates was definitely one of the main factors that invoked my action. I was surprised by both the positive and the negative feedback on the issue. However, at the end of the day/issue, I was in for more surprise when Mr. Lecturer stopped being sarcastic in class. Though things do not occur as I have expected (I predicted the worst), but yea, I am really happy and glad that it turned out this way. Mr. Lecturer no longer try to burden us, but instead, he had shown a little compassion and comprehension for SAM March intake student.
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Had a great game of basketball last night. Surprisingly, it was just plain fun. I used to dread this sport, 'coz you know how my size relative to other player actually put me into total disadvantage, not to mentioned being knocked flying for countless times. Yet, last Friday's game with my classmates was so enjoyable that I forgot about my hunger (no wonder happiness is the ultimate objective for every action of humans) until a point where there is an acid-base imbalance in my tummy and ouch, gastric striked. It was already 8.30pm then. And I usually have my dinner by 7pm. If my tummy didn't stop me, I may have continue playing basketball with my classmates until 10pm?
More than 6 months since I quited my part time job.
Less than 2 months before SAM public exams
52 hours countdown to my Physics test.
At least 7 uncompleted assignments, partialy done, now lay waste in my computer.
1 objective of life:
Eat (waste resources), drink (again waste Earth's resources), sleep (waste time) and slack (do nothing = waste more time).
Sunday, 14 September 2008
Have a Nice Day
Have a nice day, Mr. Lecturer, 'coz actions are to be taken.
I'll now embrace evil to defeat a greater evil who has been lurking in the corners of this educational institution and polluting the minds of youngsters with your incompetence to teach proper Moral Education. So long... and farewell.
Now, time ticks as the student governing body, INTIMA may (or may not) take appropriate actions. Countdown to a more moral society.
I'll now embrace evil to defeat a greater evil who has been lurking in the corners of this educational institution and polluting the minds of youngsters with your incompetence to teach proper Moral Education. So long... and farewell.
Now, time ticks as the student governing body, INTIMA may (or may not) take appropriate actions. Countdown to a more moral society.
Friday, 5 September 2008
Pursuing My True Self
Many incident have occurred and I'll like to stress 2 unique events. One will show you the ugly face of the world, the other event would be more pleasant to the eyes and ears.
My lecturer for Moral subject used to be a person I look up upon, until today, where he finally shown his true colours. The situation was like this:
It happened in the lecturer hall. I was going to look for the attendance list, thinking that it might be in the lecturer's hands. Then my friend told me that it's with him. So, I quickly ran over to his position and put down my signature. Then I've noticed that I was recorded as absent for the last 2 lessons, even though I've put my signature on the list, just below my allocated row because my signature was a little out of size and could not fit into the columns provided. Hence, I went down to speak to the lecturer and reason with him.
Little did I know that my actions would change my life completely.
I was planning to enquire not only about my attendance, but also about the lecture notes, provided that my roommate gave me his, which was a little deviated from the newest version. Thus, I asked him...
Me: Sir, why did you record me absent when I have put down my signature?
Thangavelu: You didn't sign IN THE COLUMN.
Me: But sir, there's not enough space, my signature is rather big ma. After all, I'm the last one listed in this page, so I signed at the free space below my row.
Thangavelu: BUT YOU DIDN'T SIGN IN THE SPACE GIVEN. ASK INTI TO MAKE THE COLUMNS BIGGER LA. Why you sign so big? DO I NEED TO TEACH YOU HOW TO SIGN SMALLER? Hey Raymond, you see the boy here, he...
I ran out of their sights.
So this is an idiot who lectures to other on how to be a better person, and yet he couldn't even practice what he preaches? So this is a human who ask others to do reasoning before making decisions, yet he himself cannot comprehend simple rational facts and arguments? So this is the lecturer who is rumoured spending 2 minutes to mark an assignment, giving 1 mark per paragraph written? If Raymond Lee was in the same league with the likes of Thangavelu (which I do not doubt), then I'm sure that I should be condemn to the depths of hell for every day I looked upon these two person as my role models.
Now it's my turn to show my true self.
Yes, I won't curse the lecturer. I'm a person who can do better reasoning than a monkey with a lecturer ID (this is a successful example of packaging). I'll just blame his father for his incompetence to educate his son well. Damn you, Thangavelu.
For the second incident, I guess I'll keep in for another day. Below is a spoiler...
My lecturer for Moral subject used to be a person I look up upon, until today, where he finally shown his true colours. The situation was like this:
It happened in the lecturer hall. I was going to look for the attendance list, thinking that it might be in the lecturer's hands. Then my friend told me that it's with him. So, I quickly ran over to his position and put down my signature. Then I've noticed that I was recorded as absent for the last 2 lessons, even though I've put my signature on the list, just below my allocated row because my signature was a little out of size and could not fit into the columns provided. Hence, I went down to speak to the lecturer and reason with him.
Little did I know that my actions would change my life completely.
I was planning to enquire not only about my attendance, but also about the lecture notes, provided that my roommate gave me his, which was a little deviated from the newest version. Thus, I asked him...
Me: Sir, why did you record me absent when I have put down my signature?
Thangavelu: You didn't sign IN THE COLUMN.
Me: But sir, there's not enough space, my signature is rather big ma. After all, I'm the last one listed in this page, so I signed at the free space below my row.
Thangavelu: BUT YOU DIDN'T SIGN IN THE SPACE GIVEN. ASK INTI TO MAKE THE COLUMNS BIGGER LA. Why you sign so big? DO I NEED TO TEACH YOU HOW TO SIGN SMALLER? Hey Raymond, you see the boy here, he...
I ran out of their sights.
So this is an idiot who lectures to other on how to be a better person, and yet he couldn't even practice what he preaches? So this is a human who ask others to do reasoning before making decisions, yet he himself cannot comprehend simple rational facts and arguments? So this is the lecturer who is rumoured spending 2 minutes to mark an assignment, giving 1 mark per paragraph written? If Raymond Lee was in the same league with the likes of Thangavelu (which I do not doubt), then I'm sure that I should be condemn to the depths of hell for every day I looked upon these two person as my role models.
Now it's my turn to show my true self.
Yes, I won't curse the lecturer. I'm a person who can do better reasoning than a monkey with a lecturer ID (this is a successful example of packaging). I'll just blame his father for his incompetence to educate his son well. Damn you, Thangavelu.
For the second incident, I guess I'll keep in for another day. Below is a spoiler...
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