Unchained Melody

Putting aside the past quiz and test, I am now working hard to get the gadgets that I wanted, including:

1. RX-Z motorbike (Santa Claus, give me one and I won't ask you for anything else in the next life. My driving is terrible, so 4 wheeled automobiles are useless unless they are very, very durable, such as a Bigfoot)
2. Wacom tablet (okay, an unbranded one would do also)
3. Laptop (can these machines be any cheaper?)
   
4. Glasses (all the experiments involving microscopy and the poor lighting of my workspace really took its toll on my vision)

Hmmmn... with my current income, I can get a motorbike in... 3 years' time. That's just great coz' that's when I'm graduating based on my current course, but I was also hoping to get transferred to University of New South Wales. Betting it all on INTI's scholarship.

This is the only way I can achieve my dream to study abroad. I wanna see the world with my own eyes and not from the eyes of my friends as I'm doing at the moment. No more 3rd person view please.

I felt that my life is kinda lacking something... I don't think I'm living life to the fullest, yet. I will try to enrol for swimming lessons etc. I bet it will be handy in the future for the application of my dream job... In reality, I don't even know what I wanna do as an occupation after graduation. Guess time will tell.

Crawling

Grrrrr..aahhh...

Are all women so ambiguous in words? You maybe telling me that I'm making a Hasty Generalization, but I was really irritated by the words of my Molecular & Cell Biology (MCB) lecturer. I'm started to believe that these females are sly and expertise in wordplay. Technically, it's not even a wordplay. It's a foul play. Come on, you asked me to state a reason, so I just gave you a concise reply. Yet you commented that I wasn't "answering the questions" (those are not the actual words, but I'm interpreting them this way). When did you say you want a detailed explanation on the mechanism of receptor-mediated endocytosis? Gosh... what am I suppose to do with her test? Should I make myself to exercise the old 'vomit everything a.k.a SPM' method? I thought I was done with that. I was wrong, I guess.

Can I strangle her?

Anyways, that was me getting emotional. Further posting soon, real soon.

Starless Wavelets

Bored of studying on genetics manipulation, I now resort myself to one form of entertainment: blogging. Today was a failure. Tried to mix around with the boys, but they disregard my invitation to finish up of lab report. I also tried to talk to this girl in my class but also... not yet get to know her. Sigh.... I'm kinda weak at public communication. Can hardly get acquainted to new friends. I always let my actions do the talking and thus, there was a lot of misunderstanding and complications. That's why I said that actions don't really speak louder than words. But I'm gonna try again tomorrow, if possible.

Tests are just about the corner, and I care little about reading the textbooks that I borrowed. Biology (1300++ pages) and Chemistry is way too thick, make me feel lazy even by looking at the coverpage. On the other hand, Biotech is filled with jargons that makes you appreciate the existence of Wikipedia. But then again, my broadband connection is terrible. I realized the transfer speed in INTI's computer lab is way faster than mine. And I wonder why leh...

Commission! I've not received any art commissions yet, but I've accepted the earnest request of Sis. Su Bang and Sis. Ong to type, type,type song lyrics for the Buddhist Centre. Reminds me of my job as a librarian years ago. Though this job doesn't comes with a reward, but the two teachers have given me lots of advice from personal experience. So I don't really mind... I'm lying?

She Will Be Loved

Guess who is the person in the illustration.

Hero

Quoting something from today's The Star newspaper:

“...society can be superficial. But we can take a step back and start accepting this as a general behaviour (like how we pick up the best looking food in the supermarket) and do something about it — not just to be accepted by society, but to better ourselves and, in my case, have the last laugh!”. I'm not going to do the Harvard referencing for citation here. I had enough of all the formalities and rules of society. I'm going to plagiarize now and no one can stop me!

Basically, this girl confessed that if it weren't for the huge change she made, she would have trapped in an unhappy life like many of us. I intend to follow her footsteps to undergo a metamorphosis and I'm also placing her as one of the best example to follow in life.

Looking at other issues in hand, I wanna say that I've lost my labcoat. It cost a whopping RM50 for a piece. Now I'm thinking of a way to get a replacement. My first salary from my new part-time job would go to INTI again, I suppose, like how my paycheck last year was given to the driving school.

About my part time job, I really want to cry out foul play by the employer. IF IT WEREN'T FOR MY SISTER TO ASK ABOUT IT YESTERDAY AND TELL ME TODAY, I WOULDN'T KNOW THAT I WAS HIRED AND I NEED TO START WORKING IMMEDIATELY. To hell with that! For the same reason, more complications happened. I hated the management for putting me into this huge mess, which can hardly be described in a few sentences. I think I need at least 3 paragraphs, but I wanted to keep this post short, so I'm ending this issue here on a low tone.

The Genesis

I'm announcing that I am accepting art commissions!

Yes, I'll draw an A4-sized drawing of anything you want for a price: a meal! Yes, knightalex will provide such a service as long as you treat me a meal, a petty price to pay for my inexperience, low-class drawings! No toning, no colouring, just plain back and white lineart. Do send me a reference photo (a photo of yourself if u want a portrait). No time frame though.

Anyways, here's life lesson number 2: actions doesn't count!

Remember of the old saying 'It is the thoughts that matter'. I used to believe that it is the actions that really important. And the harsh reality implies that both idealogy applies only in perfectionism. The public wants to hear... yeah, they want to hear the words, regardless of the credibility of those words. Those pleasant white lies is what they want to hear. They want their needs to be satisfied. They So now I truly understand where I stand: isolated from the public a lone ranger along the Fool's journey. So in other words, I have to confess to... if I want get close to her? Heck no, such a move is too embarrassing to be conducted!

Now I've to decide whether to hold steadfast to my principles or just go along with the crowd once more? The longer I continue to drift aimlessly, the further apart I am from the crowd on the opposite shore. Should I swim across the water body between us and leave my past behind?

This is something I came up with a few post in the past. So now I'm quoting myself.
Awful reply: I am not photogenic. I don't like taking photos. The internet is malicious and digital abuse of my personal information is scaring the hell out of me from displaying photos online.
Pleasant reply: I'm always the one holding the camera, and don't expect me to give up my position without a proper fight.

Deng, my thoughts are disorganized with various issues. Will post more often in the future by the request of Eldwin. Will post more reader-friendly materials as suggested by CR. Will be more easy to be approached and less pessimistic as shown by Lew. But I don't think I'll comply to the earnest demands of Tian, Ee Jane and Melody to upload more photos. Will I deny their earnest request?

This day marks the birth of a new individual! Begone, the past Alex!

A Little Too Late

I've learned many precious lessons this week and I've treasure this knowledge. As the old sayings goes "It's difficult to be human". Don't you agree with me?

Lesson 1

Always try to please the public. This principle is somehow related to utilitarianism, yet in my point of view it can be a whole different issue altogether, particularly at this age level. A lesson I've learned during CNY celebration, a late lesson.

Well, I usually don't say no to any, I really meant ANY invitations to gather together and have fun (namely yamcha, movies, shopping etc.) And because of this, I always get myself in trouble, i.e. no time to do my own work. Well, below is my timetable for last week. Read on and decide whether my choice to go with the crowd is a positive move or the opposite.

Wednesday, 28/1

Get yourself a clique! Nothing beat the good old time with your diehard pals! At times, expressing your true feelings may not be a good thing. Gotto just keep those pessimistic thought to yourself and not spoil the festive atmosphere. Spent approximately 10 hours with my pals.

Thursday, 29/1

Went out from 12pm to 12am. Many of the friends that I've visited that day are those not-so-close friends, but I've realized that it's not that difficult to be friendly to these acquaintances of mine. With a little more effort in communication and taadaa... better public relations! Though I believed my introvert self is the main factor driving people away from me.

Friday, 30/1

Hey, my ex-Chinese teacher still remember me after all these years, 2 years to be exact. Due to the lack of transportation means. I've decided to use my reliable o' pair of legs to get to the designated gathering spot before getting a lift from Yuan Wei to Cheras Mahkota. To note, it was noon and the sun was hanging high. I must have stink like a buffalo. Later that night, we went to Siew Yin's place... until 6am! One point that I really wanna say but I've kept to myself: Siew Yin, did u drink and drive? I was glad that u kept your conciousness and sanity all the while even after all the red wine you have drank.

Saturday, 31/1

I believed this is the craziest day of my life. Imagine of visiting 12 places in a streak just for the angpow! Well, I'm sure MY intention wasn't so, but I can't speak for the crowd. More than half of the 'friends' that I've visited that day was nothing more than nodding acquaintance. Part 2 of Lesson 2 was learnt today. But what really shocked me was... 'she' was there. After all these time, I'm really happy to see her. I was really embarassed because I was sleeping when she and her clique came (not to my house of course).

Yea, I was sleeping. After all, after returning home at 6am and waking up at 9am to meet up with the rest, how can you expect me to hold back my fatigue without any rest. But my strenght and stamina recovered immediately after seeing 'her'. Now that I've learn about 'her' wherabouts, should I mustering all my courage and try...? That evening we had a sumptuous Steamboat dinner, follow with visitng a few more houses before calling it a day (12am and u call it a DAY?).

Sunday, 1/2

Happy birthday, bro! It's good that it falls on Federal Territory Day; you get an extra day off! After another delicious lunch with family, I went to my friend's place then headed to my cutesy ex-Mathematics teacher house. She is a dedicated lecturer. Many of our classmates USED TO occupy her during her classes. Yes, we indeed occupy her time and bombarded her with math problems in sequence, one after another. After visitng two more friends, I said goodbye and walked home. If I've not done so, I'm sure I'll be dead the very nest day: two lab reports and one assignment to hand in the very next day, which I've not yet finished any of them yet.

Conclusion: This year's CNY have really brought me many valuble lessons and also suprises. I'll continue on Lesson 2 next time.