Translucent

To be honest, I am rather envious of my friends who have close and meaningful friendship at their respective workplace. I am sure that such friendships help to keep them happy at their workplace. As we spend a lot of our time at work, having meaningful connections with work colleagues can support not only our emotional and psychological health, but also our ability to succeed at work (source).

So, throughout my 5 years of employment history, I was not able to find such friendship at work. Perhaps I did find them, but I never took the effort to keep those friendship alive. Why? What was the reason I choose to stay away from people at work? Was it because I deliberately keep my distance from them? Was it because I could not see them beyond their roles as my client, superior or subordinates? Was I lacking in empathy and emotions? As I become self-aware of my social problems, I seek to alleviate these problems before I become a social vagrant.

Perhaps I am just trying to avoid exposing my personal vulnerabilities at work (source).