End of Eden

It's the end of the month of September. For some of us, the song "Wake Me Up When September Ends" by Green Day would be most relevant. But as residents in Nusantara, we hope that our nightmare of this haze would end soon so that we can get back to our daily lives.

"Indonesia, why you no do proper peat management?!"



I, on the other hand, was not able to distinguish the days and months in my memories that distinctly, for I have been living in a lazy and stagnant lifestyle, without any aims in life. It was easy to tell that I was suffering from quarter-life crisis: Work was boring and lack of results. Various skills of mine are getting corroded with time. On the other hand, the economy slumps and life becomes difficult. However, after listening to some words of inspiration and motivation on the radio as well as from my close friends, I ponder on what is to become of me after this month. I reevaluate my skills and my assets. I study my strengths and weaknesses. It was a long, tedious process that truly consumed my metal processing capacity. For a few months, I was thinking about this matter day in and out.

After the entire thinking process, I have finally made a decision. I decided to stop going with the flow of events around me. This is not a huge change of attitude or personality, but just a change of activities and environment. And so, with the end of September, I will make that change! This time, I will not be afraid to lose, to fail and to take risk. I will not fear to live life anymore.