Gives Me Hell

Made another discovery recently. I have taken my freedom for granted. If I was forced to wear glasses all the time in the past, surely I wouldn't feel the same about it now that I owned a pair. But then again, this freedom doesn't happen to everyone... so I guess it is alright for me to take it as a fashion accessory rather than a tool to correct vision defect. Hahahaha... (sorry to those with glasses. I know I am a jerk when it comes to this topic)

Semester break is just a fortnight away and I am really looking forward to it. I am wondering whether I should continue to be a student helper for INTI during May enrolment. I still don't have a job after looking for one all these while. The pay maybe low but I guess it is better to have income then just living off my parent's money. After all, I resolved that I would try hard to find a way to get transfer abroad and doing a part-time job is in fact one step closer to that goal of mine, financially in my opinion.

This week is like hell. I was totally occupied by the my Critical Thinking's (SSC) Project and Mathematics's Survey. My group members are not really committed into doing these projects and it made me wonder whether I was the only one concerned about it. They (not all of them) were always late for our meetings. The attendence was also poor. I'm not particularly enthusiastic about these projects, but I am determined to get better grades. That's the only way I am going to get my dream achieved, through that small opportunity provided by INTI-UNSW scholarship. If I have to sing a song in front of a class of 50 to get that scholarship ( I did kinda sing indirectly for one of the project together with other team members, nevertheless I am sure I would do it alone if I really have to, even though everyone would shut their ears upon listening to my horrible voice)

However, I guess I'm also half-assed about it. For example, I who was supposed to be studying for the semester finals, ended up flipping through the pages of picture books on illustration, photography and digital graphic designs. When I finally get a grip of myself, fatigue seemed to be deterring me from studying Biology. I can barely keep my eyes open after skimming through 10 pages of printed notes... Well, this is what you can expect from someone like me. XD

Do you wonder why I am so self-centered? Don't I have any friends worth mentioning here? I wanna do so... I will see what I can do in the next posting... I am not sure what image I can place here 'coz I have not been drawing recently. Yea, it's kinda sad.