Tuesday, 29 May 2018

The Gathering Storm

It's been more than 3 months since my last update
so allow me to compile my thoughts and experience since then
and put them all into words in a blog post

After submitting my thesis to the faculty, 
I started on a new job in the state of Perak
as an agrochemical salesperson
which require lots of communication and socialization
with clients and coworkers
While my sales figures are still poor
I hope that I will be able to harvest the fruits of my labour (soon)
There are so many small but tangible details in this line of work
that I can't entire managing them all with my current abilities
Nevertheless, this is the reason I accepted this challenge
So that I could get out of the "book-smart" label
and gain more "street-smart" skills

Besides my day job,
I am also fitting more time to achieve some goals
which I have set to be completed before the age of 30
such as running a half-marathon and possibly conquering Mt. KK
So I really need to be stronger physically to achieve these goals

P/S: I am still waiting for the viva voce confirmation
so that I can finish the course and say goodbye to UTM

Thursday, 4 January 2018


To be honest, I am rather envious of my friends who have close and meaningful friendship at their respective workplace. I am sure that such friendships help to keep them happy at their workplace. As we spend a lot of our time at work, having meaningful connections with work colleagues can support not only our emotional and psychological health, but also our ability to succeed at work (source).

So, throughout my 5 years of employment history, I was not able to find such friendship at work. Perhaps I did find them, but I never took the effort to keep those friendship alive. Why? What was the reason I choose to stay away from people at work? Was it because I deliberately keep my distance from them? Was it because I could not see them beyond their roles as my client, superior or subordinates? Was I lacking in empathy and emotions? As I become self-aware of my social problems, I seek to alleviate these problems before I become a social vagrant.

Perhaps I am just trying to avoid exposing my personal vulnerabilities at work (source).

Thursday, 21 December 2017

Love and friendship - a personal reflection

 A blog without pictures is boring. Photo taken at Melbourne outskirts.

There was this blogger who wrote stuff that got me thinking a lot about my understanding with regards to relationship and romance. Allow me to paraphrase on the highlights of that blog post:

Males rely on female partner/spouse as their sole emotional support. Bonding between males are usually on a more superficial level that does not being honest about emotional problems. As a result, males need to have a female partner to share their emotional needs and vulnerabilities. On the other hand, females do no fear to share emotional problems. Friendship between females is heavily based on emotional support. Having someone to listen to all your problems and keep you company is equivalent to having a friend.

As a result, there is a disconnect between males and females when interpreting relationship as romance or friendship. Males generally think that only a romantic partner would share their emotion problems with them. However, to quote, "...females do it for their romantic partners and their friends and expect a male friend to do it for them the same a female friend would. This fools the male friend into thinking there must be something romantic there when there is not."

Tuesday, 21 November 2017

The Other Promise

In the end, I could not achieve my goal
of completing my thesis draft by the 26th of November
All the completed chapters require revision
and those uncompleted parts remained uncompleted
Academic writing seemed so difficult to me
as every statement require fact-checking

Actually, I made a point of going to Melbourne at the end of November
and used that as a reminder for this deadline that I have set for myself
Argh... this is so frustrating...

Monday, 30 October 2017


Hmmn... I guess I haven't spend any time
to reflect on my recent activities
so now I will be doing just that

Standard photoshoot with cosplayer friends in which I made the 2D scene into life.
But I didn't render any of those flame. I merely used existing photo stocks...

Wednesday, 23 August 2017

Everlasting Transeunt

I haven't done any video gaming as of lately
as I am busy with my thesis-writing
And I believe this will go on until mid-September
Now, as I am deprived of my video game aesthetics
I could only rely on my imagination to fill in that void
But I am sure once I have completed my studies
The outcome will justify the effort that I have put forth

Thursday, 10 August 2017

Destiny's Union

I love video games just as much as I like good written stories. But I am greatly amazed by video games because itself is a medium is composed of various elements, such as visual art, writing, spoken dialogues, gameplay, animation cutscenes and music that works in tandem to create an immersive experience for the players. Written stories, particularly novels and short stories leave room for your imagination to recreate the scene being described in the writing, which include the smell, the touch and the feeling of the character. Your imagination of the scene may be limited by the words being written. If the description fall short, then the readers would usually fill in the blank with their imagination. In fact, all good stories encourages the viewers to use their imagination to enhance the storytelling experience. In some cases, the viewers were able to use their imagination to fill in the plot holes!